Since beginning of my carrier I’ve always had a dream to have an
art shop next to my house, a cafe place in front of it where I can
meet up with my clients. It sounds like a beautiful dream. I shared
my dream with my family and my partner several times but it just
didn’t happen, because of time and money. Until one day my ego got
a tantrum. I said to myself I want it now, I already worked so hard,
I deserve it!
Short
story, we found an abandoned villa next to my shop and did exactly
what I was dreaming about. I should be happy for this achievement
right? But in the new place we face new and different problems. It
started with renovation which requires so many people to work in it
and it creates so many stressful situations. Workers fee was much
more expensive than the villa rent itself. Did I enjoy it? I didn’t
enjoy it because day by day I only face and solve new challenges.
There so many times I was crying, shouting out loud, and say I would
give up! The next day after I calm down, I realize I can’t give up
because I already spent too much time and energy in it.
Finally
villa is all sorted. I have a nice place to sleep and work with a
restaurant in front of it. I thought now it will be time to have a
good rest a bit, but actually the different and new journey just
started and I need to face new problems. It is more than just
building something and organizing builders. It is about managing and
running the restaurant and rental, staff, food, visitors and
customers. All this happens on top of my painting workshop and
Wildindo production.
How
different is the beautiful dream about have a restaurant and cafe
compare to reality with so much work, energy, time and money which
make me keep question myself what have I learned from all this? Am I
really happy my dream has become? How to be thankful for what I have
now? And it all leads to final question what does really matter in
life.